Rusty

Returned from Spring Break trip couple days ago and have resumed my Google Cert. work. I am so rusty! It's scary how quickly my Figma knowledge leaked out of my brain. It makes me quite anxious about landing a gig. If I don't keep up my work, I'm going to be useless. 

Spring Break went well and I thoroughly enjoyed myself and being unplugged. It was surprising how I didn't feel lonely and I've resolved to spend less time on my phone. It didn't feel like I missed much on social media, but I'm not sure how I would know unless I manually checked friends' feeds. I'm not motivated. 

I am motivated to get back to work on Figma and finishing that certification. I can move on to other certs after that and keep up with Figma doing passion projects. 

I must stick with it.

Travel plans have been made for next year and later this year. I get to go back to Disneyland in the fall! It's been nearly 9 years and I've forgotten much of it, so it might seem pretty novel. My son is not enthused with the idea and dismissed the amusement park: "It just Disney." I think he thinks it's juvenile and maybe there is a smear campaign at school, who knows? He had a rough time at Legoland and then had fond memories a week or so later. Universal went better, but also involved some diggin' in of the heels. We can only hope he'll do better this time.

Down to the last couple months of teaching. Being part-time and only teaching every other day means that I have less than 20 days left with students. I'm excited but nervous as well to be launched into unemployment at the end of May. The plan is to obtain some sort of gig before the end of summer-UX or otherwise-and earn as much as I earn doing teaching part-time. That might involve lower pay and longer hours, but I'm willing. Just need something to contribute. 

The rosy optimism seems to be fading and reality setting in about how difficult this leap is going to be. Doubts of succeeding at all are creeping in. Could I have spent all that money getting a certificate for my skills to fade in the gap between education and employment?

I sure hope not.